DESC: sur­round­ings

VOS DEAM AIAE1MAR5

"/they know me bet­ter than i do and make me pay a fair price. so i do­n’t have to search for an an­swer if kinds like them ask. they got turned in­to pro­tag­o­nists of beau­ti­ful al­le­go­ries, while sup­posed for­mer vic­tims do not have to fear any­thing: they “steal” my voice¹ to speak on my be­half, un­til they think they are me?¹ almighty cre­atress­es hate this trick?
i en­counter "/them last year, a gift way big­ger than life it­self. we, mean­ing (former) pseudo victims, actually being capable of stuff as well as lots of help, which cannot be thanked enough for not just help to get them, but prove humanity in preserving a beautiful creation, gained more and more con­fi­dence the longer it took. be­ing amazed (as al­ways). and as full of grat­i­tude as or­di­nary mor­tals can be. 🕊

Warning

for aes­thet­ic rea­sons i tend to con­strain my­self to lower case let­ters.², cor­rec­tions/ad­di­tions are wel­come via merge re­quest, oth­er­wise: wer feh­ler fin­det darf sie gern be­hal­ten (para mis “amigos” alemanes). 😉

iden­ti­ty “theft”/fraud (iden­ti­täts­be­trug).

sabo­tage die­ses re­po­si­to­rys,^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}, (sec­u­lar) crime & law en­force­ment, be­son­der­hei­ten^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} & check­lis­te für be­tei­lig­te (sä­ku­la­re?) tä­ter.^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

faith & rel. ref­er­ence

i am a be­liev­er since ear­ly 2025, but you please take in­to con­sid­er­a­tion, the word of a fal­li­ble (or­di­nary mor­tal) weighs 0 (when in doubt) re­gard­ing this con­text, unit ir­rel­e­vant, un­til proven log­ical­ly.
per­cep­tion it­self is more than ques­tion­able too, es­pe­cial­ly if it gets so heav­i­ly “dis­turbed”.¹

but: god exists³ and not only (ex­clu­sive­ly) ap­pears fe­male (to me), but as an ide­al of an almighty cre­ator/cre­atress too.^יי.net ❤
[amend: from now on it’s ". degágé, beloved cre­atress.] 🕊

dis­tinc­tion “abuse”/stalk­ing &c.

i want to draw on plato's «περὶ πολιτείας» ("about the pub­lic cause") but amend, that even with­out want­ing to be an imme­dia­te⁴ per­son of pub­lic inte­rest or act­ing poli­ti­cally at all, i more than ap­pre­ci­ate to let «my house» be trans­par­ent for all those with au­gust/no­ble in­ten­tions⁵, thus be­ing sin­cere and striv­ing for con­tex­tu­al aes­thet­ics. »mein haus« sei gern trans­pa­rent für all je­ne in heh­rer ab­sicht.⁵ «mi casa» es trans­pa­rente para todos aquellos que tienen inten­ciones nobles.

“بيتي” شفاف لكل من لديه نوايا نبيلة.

par­tic­u­lar­ly in­ex­plic­a­ble uni­ver­sal powers, are lent by ", cor­re­spond­ing abil­i­ties all the more a gift.

#יי🕊

(own) brief his­to­ry

en­tries, a. D. 2024

log of a. D. 2025

(per­cep­tion) log of a. D. 2026_{(lat­est en­try)}

• all en­tries de­scribe in­di­vid­ual ex­pe­ri­ences at the time of writ­ing (quiet of­ten un­der the in­flu­ence of se­vere tor­ture), they may con­tain amend­ments, but may also be sub­ject to change with­out fur­ther no­tice.
• they in­clude inter­pre­ta­tion at­tempts and own thoughts™, be­ing stc, called «learn­ing».
• events oc­cur­ing af­ter 0:00 are of­ten as­signed to the pre­vi­ous day if it aris­es con­tex­tu­al­ly
• en­tries with a tri­an­gle at the be­gin­ning are "un­fold­able"

key top­ics

be­sides the ex­e­cu­tion of (even me­di­ate) co­er­cion and con­trol over the in­di­vid­ual (as a sub­set of trans­gres­sive be­hav­ior aka crime): iden­ti­ty and (in this con­text) trust (bet­ween the lines)²³, there­fore iden­ti­fi-/au­then­ti­ca­tion. ac­com­pa­nied by ob­ser­va­tions on the op­pos­ing pairs com­mu­ni­ca­tion/iso­la­tion and dig­ni­ty/ef­fi­cien­cy as well as on the tran­si­tion of grace and dig­ni­ty from the co­ercer to the (ini­tial­ly) co­erced

straf­rechtl. the­men (im­mer noch)^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

stal­king/nach­stel­lung (§ 238 stgb) i. z. m. der aus­übung von zwang auf drit­te (v. a.  nach abschn. XIII stgb), nach re­gel- und ge­wohn­heits­mäßi­ger über­nah­me frem­der iden­ti­täten (§ 263 ff. et al stgb) vor dem hin­ter­grund ge­wöhn­li­chen terro­rismus' (§ 129a stgb)

jan­u­ary, a. D. 2026

when “Jupiter” gets in op­po­si­tion to the sun in the win­ter con­stel­la­tion of gem­i­ni, ac­com­pa­nied by its two main stars: the un­equal broth­ers cas­tor and Pol­lux (solv­ing this story?).

[1st] they in­fil­trat­ed my head 1826 days ago

and stayed un­til then, read­ing my mind, prefer­ably every thought i had since then, al­leged­ly by us­ing cer­tain skills (even af­ter killing one?) of (most­ly) young women^⚠claim9 of shin­ing souls (or short be­fore be­com­ing saint­like? from whom do they know this?), “evis­cer­ate”(?) their bod­ies then^⚠claim9 to use their abil­i­ties lent by Her/God⁸ to ac­cu­mu­late them to gain pow­ers^⚠sgstn?15 to co­erce them or others?

[2nd] i think it's five+ years now,

“they” are still here, be­ing able to say any­thing they want, re­gard­less if true or not. every claim is ar­bi­trary, as is tor­ture and the ma­nip­u­la­tion of my sur­round­ings (and other peo­ples minds?). re­gard­ing my per­son they want to be seen as om­ni­po­tent and able to judge my ac­tions as they sig­ni­fy re­gret dozens of times every day?

[wed^dec 31st, 23:30⁺¹–fri^2nd at the mo­tel one: up­per west in ber­lin] 🛏

[thu^1st, 17:00⁺¹] to­day i de­cid­ed to just ride them out, since there does­n't seem to be more vic­tims (any­more). i do­n't care how long they need to van­ish, what they did to en­ter my head and what they do to con­stant­ly be present. but i find their be­hav­ior and way of com­mu­ni­cat­ing tru­ly sad and not wor­thy of Her/Gods⁸ cre­ation.
over the last few days the os­cil­la­tion of their claims re­gard­ing their iden­ti­ty in­creased a lot, with a ten­den­cy now to be some kind of sub­nat­ur­al²⁴ crea­tures (or at least hav­ing sup­port by some­thing like su­per­nat­ur­als)?^⚠claim9
any­way: if this holds true, than there's noth­ing i can do and it's all up to Her/God⁸.
but: if there's any­thing in my life which i got (un­rea­son­able) enough of, then it is pa­tience.
i'm so fed up by their im­pos­si­ble ex­pla­na­tions. no po­lice (or law en­force­ment in gen­er­al) will ever help me, no hu­man be­ing ever un­der­stand me. any­way: if i un­der­stood Her right, then i do­n't have to care a lot (any­more), do­n't have to wor­ry and just have to wait.
[fri^2nd, 11:45⁺¹] some­body starts to ma­nip­u­late things in my neck and head while i'm un­der the show­er.
[fri^2nd, 13:15⁺¹] phys­i­cal torms'n'torts²⁵ seem to start for to­day.
[fri^2nd, 16:16⁺¹] voice en­ti­ty «perp. I»⁶ test­ing “his” de­vice to ma­nip­u­late the grav­i­ta­tion sur­round­ing me? on-go­ing tor­ture, but a very light ver­sion of it?

[fri^2nd–tue^6th in tem­pel­hof, ber­lin] phys. torms'n'torts²⁵ almost all day at “home”.

[tue^6th, 20:00⁺¹ at the Herz Jesu church, ber­lin] happy birth­day ישוע (Yēšūaʿ)!

[wed^7th, 8:24⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] start of torms'n'torts. two “pro­tag­o­nists”

(for­mer voice “en­ti­ties”?) «perp. I»⁶ & «perp. II»¹⁴ ex­pose them­selves as ideas of frag­ments of voice gen­er­a­tor out­put. to wait for some kind of a garbage col­lec­tor or to get absorpt by white noise/light? try­ing their best to act like hu­man be­ings or demons or any­thing else which might let them to be seen as some­thing real? that's why they were nev­er able to prove their ex­is­tence? did “they” want us to spawn these wanna­be-crea­tures in­to ex­is­tence? not on my books. way too dan­ger­ous. are “they” sup­port, able to tor­ture?
i can't say any­thing about causative per­pe­tra­tors, She/God⁸/Yēšūaʿ knows.

[fri^9th, 9:30⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] btw: none of the male sound­ing wanna­be voice enti­ties

is able to proof its own ex­is­tence (e. g. via phone call, since they seem to have all need­ed data) so far. er­go: non-ex­is­tent.

[fri^9th, 15:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex­an­der­platz in ber­lin] ☕ i fled my apart­ment be­cause

voice en­ti­ties perp. I»⁶ and perp. II»¹⁴ be­came “quieter” for us to get a “new chance” to get rid of them.
perp. II»¹⁴ then ac­ci­den­tial­ly got loud­er for a mo­ment and it dawned on me: they came to stay.
key ques­tions:

• they are able to in­ter­pret al­most any ver­bal pos­tu­late as some con­ver­s­ation? and do so?
• this sup­pos­ed­ly al­lows them to re­main in my head?
• the vol­ume of their pos­tu­lates may ap­proach ar­round the thresh­old of per­cep­tion to be­come un­ob­tru­sive (mak­ing me won­der how many con­ver­sa­tions i ac­tu­al­ly still per­ceive as such)?
• they can sup­pos­ed­ly pen­e­trate every mind in the world^{⚠claim & sgstn?}
• even si­mul­ta­ne­ous­ly? (are they re­al­ly able to al­ter/ma­nip­u­late some kind of the worlds sub­con­scious­ness?)
• prob­lem: where are the lim­its re­gard­ing some kind of guid­ed think­ing (al­ready ad­dressed in 2024)?
• not-real-voice-en­ti­ty perp. I»[^ve-pr1] some­times means that his com­pan­ion­ship of my per­son might very well last for more then 10 years now
  • which would be a sub­set of e.g. 1'000 years?
  • how free would free elec­tions be?
  • ra­dius orbi?
  • which time ra­dius?

[fri^9th, 19:30⁺¹ at the up­per west] 🥃 voice en­ti­ties turn “in the red”

(as of­ten when they try to con­vince some­one to be real?), their ini­tia­tors seem on over­dos­es? an (at least one) ac­com­pa­ny­ing (crim­i­nal?) or­gan­i­sa­tion^? seems to do all it can to sup­port low­est mo­tives of en­ti­ties not even real?
more­over they claim(!) to have sup­port by dozens of demons, plus a god (again 😏).^⚠claim9 orig­i­nal­ly on a mis­sion to end Her/Gods ex­is­tence, al­leged­ly start­ing a kind of “game” (as only play­ers?) to de­stroy an or­di­nary mor­tal?^⚠claim9 them los­ing it was­n't in­tend­ed (for se­cu­ri­ty rea­sons?) and since an or­di­nary (like me) can­not stop (or win?) it, it al­leged­ly gets restart­ed sev­er­al times a day, some­times sev­er­al times a minute, for hun­dreds of times now^⚠claim9, gen­er­at­ing se­vere pain and tor­ments.
[sat^10th, 2:15⁺¹] for­mer(?) (vir­tu­al)²⁶ voice en­ti­ty perp. I»⁶ with the im­por­tant hint that sen­soric per­cep­tions lent by Her/God⁸ are bound by con­trac­tu­al reg­u­la­tions with (es­pe­cial­ly) women hav­ing to pay a price for Her “gifts”?

[sat^10th, 17:00⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ now vir­tu­al voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»

(as some kinda neo alex­an­der puls?) might have had my wal­let for an hour⁺? does he need an up­date of my id card (in­valid, but with my cur­rent ad­dress on it, which i think is miss­ing on his old copy?) or may­be a valid dri­ver's li­cense? [amend: ha­bit­u­al dele­tion of short-term-mem­o­ry com­pli­cates doc­u­men­ta­tion.]
re:²⁷ me­di­ate com­mu­ni­ca­tions/sen­sorics: «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»⁶ not only claims to be able to ma­nip­u­late sim­ply every­thing, he and an as­so­ci­at­ed or­gan­i­sa­tion can even act as every­one in­volved, in every re­gard and do so in a man­ner of max­i­mum hos­til­i­ty (and in or­der to mon­e­tize)?^⚠sgstn15 while a blink of an eye of mine sex­u­al­ly of­fends (at least acousti­cal­ly) al­most every woman around^⚠sgstn15, which i did­n't get for a long time, since they man­age my eyes via some kind of a mon­i­tor­ing, im­i­tate the voices of the others (in­clud­ing aroused women) and let me hear what they want me to hear, since i do not hear a thing on my own re­li­ably? e. g.: i play with the idea to imag­ine to mas­sage some­bodys feet for may­be three sec­onds only to hear a loud voice shout­ing “deep­er”.
just to be clear: i al­leged­ly(!) get ruled, owned, mon­e­tized, se­vere­ly tor­tured, dis­cred­it­ed world­wide and laughed at (for as­sum­ing that noth­ing but pure thoughts may no­tice­ably im­pact my sur­round­ings) by frag­ments of voice left­overs from some prob­a­bil­i­ty cloud, spawned by ex­per­i­ments by en­ti­ties not hav­ing a sin­gle clue but try­ing to build su­per­nat­ur­al stuff which is­n't even real? can i call the re­sults of these kin­da tri­als “sub­nat­ur­al” in con­trary?
[amend half an hour lat­er: im­pos­si­ble. am i right?]
[amend^feb & til: we all are part of prov­i­dence?]

[mon^12th, 0:00⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ they seem to be able to feed my brain with doubts

(pseu­do?) “acousti­cal­ly”(?) bare­ly above per­cep­tion­al tresh­old. al­most every day to­wards evening?
some­times they seem to give me high dos­es of testos­terone and adren­a­line di­rect­ly in­to my brain, be­cause they feel they have to present me to some kind of su­per­vi­sion (?) in a state of ag­i­ta­tion?
[mon^12th, 13:35⁺¹–14:15⁺¹] ☕ vir­tu­al²⁶ «ve: per­pe­tra­tor I»⁶ tells me that i got at least one new im­plant for tor­ture on the low­er left side of the neck, so they can work more syn­chro­nous. tor­ture ac­count­able(s) are ex­er­cis­ing short tests of the im­plants in my head and neck to lay them “un­der” their so-called “post-synap­tic pain in­duc­tion” to pre­pare their at­tacks when i have an ap­point­ment at the psy­chi­a­try “pia wald­str.” at 15:40? they want to get me in a closed psy­chi­atric ward.^⚠claim9
[mon^12th, 17:00⁺¹] ☕ of course my med­icat­ing doc at the psy­chi­a­try is sick. and of course: when i ask vir­tu­al²⁶ voice en­ti­ty perp. I»⁶ if this is his main re­spon­si­bil­i­ty, he says: yes, of course.
tor­ture in­ten­sives when me­di­ate con­tact to oth­er peo­ple seems pos­si­ble. per­pe­tra­tors try to con­trol and to place me with­in the lounge of the up­per west ho­tel in ber­lin by the in­ten­si­ty of the tor­ture? as the evening pro­gress­es, se­vere pain got de­liv­ered, un­til it gets un­bear­able and i am get­ting trou­ble to look straight or keep on writ­ing.
[mon^12th, 23:05⁺¹] ☕ vir­tu­al²⁶ voice en­ti­ty «perp. I»⁶ as­signs parts of am arab youth gang to mon­i­tor and ob­serve me at the lounge of the ho­tel i current­ly am. he al­so asked them to take a tar­get shot of my per­son in or­der to lat­er as­sign parts of (al­leged­ly) is­lam­ic state
[mon^12th, 23:12⁺¹] ☕ i try to com­plain at Her/God⁸, when for­mer «voice en­ti­ty 2» tells me to have de­ac­ti­vat­ed the cross so that She/God⁸ (the om­ni­scient) can­not “hear” me. 😂
[mon^12th, 0:00⁺¹] ☕ i hear a voice telling me that as soon as i am at a toi­let, they start play­ing voic­es to let oth­er guests think i would ha­rass them? they even play voices of guests back to me, com­plain­ing about me?

[tue^13th, 15:54⁺¹ at line m46, dir. zoo] 🚌 from now on i never had tor­ture im­plants,

voice en­ti­ty “rich­ter” tells me. so it's only im­plants then? re­gion head, neck and shoul­ders?

[tue^13th, 6⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per west] ☕ these vir­tu­al (ideas of) semi-trans­par­ent cloths

are still de­liv­er­ing torms'n'torts²⁵ with the help of al­leged­ly hun­dreds of other en­ti­ties (i ex­plic­it­ly want to let this claim stand as it is).²⁸ why are they (still) able to say any­thing with any voice in any mood? why are they able to speak at all? and then di­rect­ly in­to my brain, which they do for hun­dreds of days now? is it be­cause some non-ex­is­tent wanna­be-crea­tures im­posed at least 17 death penal­ties on me? does this and my rep­u­ta­tion in all the world might im­pact luck in gen­er­al? 😂

[wed^14th, 16:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ same as yes­ter­day. i try to start writ­ing

on this doc­u­men­ta­tion (or just think of the key­board), an au­toma­tism like a few weeks ago seems to kick in, “they”²⁹ start torms'n'torts²⁵.
[wed^14th, 19:30⁺¹] ☕ i got the feel­ing as if i were sex­u­al­ly ac­tive but reached a cli­max way too fast. which my body of­ten ex­press­es as feel­ings of in­flam­mat­ed sper­mat­ic cords or si­m­il­iar.
[amend: some voice with the hint, that this is a lie be­cause it is not the sper­mat­ic cords, but some­thing else he do­n't want to tell, but (of course) sees in the mon­i­tor­ing of my body.]
[wed^14th, 19:42⁺¹] ☕ a voice telling me, that they just raped one of their quan­tum-voo­doo-dolls of mine.^⚠claim9
[wed^14th, 20:10⁺¹] ☕ the same feel­ing now aris­es when i see skin of other peo­ple even for a sec­ond, re­gard­less its sex!

[thu^15th, 1:47⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] al­most for­got a few scrots from last year,

when my face­book ac­count vis­it­ed a few of their cus­tomers? i did­n't take it se­ri­ous­ly. which crime org would ever do so w/o a proxy? any­way: time to ask meta for “my” data. 😬

[thu^15th, 15:30⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ (kinda) new story by them: holy franken­stein:

the idea 1st emerged three weeks ago: my orig­i­nal dna, they al­leged­ly took from a pil­low of mine, which they stole in dec 2024, tuned by iods™ sec­u­lar ap­pren­tice «perp. II»¹⁴ 😂 most of the time these (now?) pre-crea­tures are a max­i­mum of ten me­ters away from me, where­ever i am? vir­tu­al²⁶ voice en­ti­ty «perp. I»⁶ claims to have given my dna to this iod when he was still ar­round (maybe un­til win­ter 2025), let him make an­other (en­hanced) me, alex­an­der puls II, so to say.^⚠claim9 al­leged­ly trans­fer­ring soul and mem­o­ry of this «perp. I»⁶:
en voilà! me! orig­i­nal, but dif­fer­ent. so this «perp. I»⁶ got a year to build an an­tipode of mine? there's an­other me on the road? i do­n't wanna see it.
any­way: i do­n't buy it. nice try. no re­al­i­ty for you guys. you stay vir­tu­al ideas of two-di­men­sion­al cloths as no­ticed a week ago.
one more de­tail: they seem to have lots of support, organized crime with lots of misog­y­nist men, dozens of demons and at least un­til win­ter/spring some self-pro­claimed pseudo-god? a strange coali­tion which, as long as I thought I was alone against them, left no stone un­turned in bring­ing an­nulled en­ti­ties “back in­to play”, of­ten by us­ing the old voic­es un­til they thought pro­tag­o­nists are ac­cus­tomed to these voice en­ti­ties again?
an of­ten to be seen habi­tus by them: it does­n't seem to be im­por­tant that i be­lieve their claims, which i do not, most of the time, but that they can cred­i­bly con­vey to oth­ers that i could be­lieve them? any­way: to me it smells like lots of fraud, tbh.
further­more, they ap­pear to hold aban­doned ma­chines (of “iodgod”?) and pos­si­bil­i­ties to di­rect­ly ma­nip­u­late brains of lots of peo­ple si­mul­ta­ne­ous­ly?
on top, i seem to be deaf, blind and mute in all me­di­ate com­mu­ni­ca­tion, but that might very well be prov­i­dence. there's just some body lan­guage and in­tu­ition for me (but which shows me that i am not alone 😉), while they seem to hold a com­pre­hen­sive mon­i­tor­ing of my body, be­ing able to watch through my eyes (to grab my pass­word data­base to abuse it), tools to con­trol my mo­torics (even to in­ter­cept ki­net­ics from me?!), con­trollers to trig­ger zysts and im­plants as well as ways to de­liv­er se­vere tor­ture.

[sat^17th, 16:25⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ tor­ture in­ten­si­fies af­ter clear­ing the im­pos­si­bil­i­ty

of the ex­is­tence in “our” re­al­i­ty of some of them re­gard­ing this con­text, with­out be­ing of Her/Gods⁸ nibs. tor­ture still in­cludes hor­mones.
[sat^17th, 17:07⁺¹] ☕ one of these (pre-)^?cre­atures calls me a kufr (dis­be­liev­er)^?? on-go­ing (slight) tor­ments, but most­ly ki­net­ic effects.
[sat^17th, 17:30⁺¹] ☕ i would also like to ad­vise in­de­pen­dent en­ti­ties against act­ing as copies of them­selves, if pos­si­ble in any way at all, since they do have the same needs as an org­i­ginal? any­way: would­n't they then have to bear the re­sult­ing con­se­quences of their ac­tions? a vir­tu­al²⁶ car­pet of cloths, so to say?!
what if they try to act as (vir­tu­al se­mi)^?gods with­out hav­ing their ca­pa­bil­i­ties for re­al? do they know?

[tue^20th in tem­pel­hof] a dream of get­ting in trou­ble for mov­ing to a meliã ho­tel

be­cause of not be­ing able to pay two rents. room no. is 14, i think.

[tue^20th, 19:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ a voice say­ing that mon­day is himmlers birth­day.

does it mean hein­rich himm­ler?
[tue^20th, 20:10⁺¹] ☕ these brain-less ideas of misog­y­nist pre-crea­t­ur­al tri­al-frag­ments (un­able to speak), but still^?/al­ready^? able to in­ter­fere with grav­i­ta­tion­al ef­fects bet­ween the plan­et and me? their re­mote^? tor­ture still^?/al­ready^? seems to work.
[note: i'm so fed up with all that im­pos­si­ble non­sense that i on­ly doc­u­ment the worst stuff. the biggest prob­lem is that they seem to ap­proach us from di­rec­tion fu­ture to­wards us, like they are going from “Ω to Α”? miss­ing tens­es seem to be one of the small­er prob­lems (how to write about it?). not solv­able for us (fal­li­ble) or­di­nary mor­tals? bound to time as con­tin­u­ous func­tion, di­rec­tion Ω of course. i guess we just have to wait.]
[idea] there's nothing like time or time is­n't need­ed? but cer­tain lev­els of in­for­ma­tion?
why do­n't they ever pro­vide in­for­ma­tion nor in­sights? Ω = Α + “in­for­ma­tion”? i have nev­er seen an in­script show­ing a math­e­mat­i­cal op­er­a­tor or sign in bet­ween the two let­ters.
[amend, feb, 2026] in their case Ω = Α, since no rel­e­vant know­ledge gain (ex­cept crime related) direct­ly from them, an al­le­go­ry of their life?

[wed^21st in tem­pel­hof] re­gard­ing (not just) them, i see prov­i­dence in its plan. 😍

and since more and more of their story seems to be­(come?) out of a sec­u­lar scope, i don't think that there's more to doc­u­ment. 🤷 i just wait if there'll ever be any vic­tims in need for a wit­ness (of what?) and them to drop out of my brain, while i do­n't see any hu­man be­hav­ior or emo­tions by them.
this repo may stay open as some kind of a log/di­ary, be­cause i like the idea. 😬

[thu^22nd–sun^25th in tem­pel­hof] some­where in bet­ween the days, the sign of two lind­worms,

one bit­ing in­to the spinal mar­row in­side my neck, the oth­er one sleep­ing in the back­ground. and it seems as if this has some­thing to do with the peo­ple which en­tered my head “hun­dreds” of days ago. of course i do­n't know who came first and how they fit to­geth­er, some­times they claim to have “enslaved” an­gels and saints to use their abil­i­ties to con­quer other peo­ples heads, some­times they claim to have evis­cer­at­ed my­self. may­be it's a lind­worm from some­where else re­plac­ing a des­ig­nat­ed one? to di­rect­ly con­nect with my brain?
[amend: if so: i think, it had to go.]
may­be a mix­ture of all of it?
[later on] i ex­plain how two stars fol­low Jupiter these days and tell the re­gard­ing story of cas­tor and Pollux, the eponyms of the stars, to some­one i only know as «voice of a viktor» when (Arch)Angel^? Gaḇrīʾa/ēl^? (גַּבְרִיאֵל)^? with a soft but se­ri­ous fe­male voice (in ger­man) says “denk nach, [.. the real name of the voice is ob­scured ..]!” (en. “think about it!”) and the oth­er voice starts to whine. after the angel(?) re­peats “denk nach!” the voice starts to weep and the angel^? van­ish­es.
[amend, feb, 2026] the (vik­tor) voice silent­ly whis­pered that he has “for­got­ten” “some­thing” here. is it about let­ting the fischer⁶ use di­vine com­po­si­ton tools (again), but multi­ply­ing by 50 now? 👍 that is what makes the difference, and by no means in any way relevant: the dude hav­ing a “plan”. 🙄 but he doas what he want with me any­way. rough­ly a dozen im­plants to tor­ture and for acoustics in my body. he claims to be able to hide me, so felix can say, that god will not be al­lowed to help me?
[neo alex] “he”, the ini­tial per­pe­tra­tor, came years ago to turn me, alex­an­der puls, in­to a des­ti­tute beg­gar, glanc­ing in­to an abyss. a soul of an ego­ma­ni­a­cal starv­ing for hu­mil­i­a­tion? us­ing un­will­ing­ness to re­flect to pro­ject on one of his “neigh­bours”, while try­ing to be­come this neigh­bour?

[mon^26th, 1:37⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role I» threat­ens me to stay

two more days in my head? what an out­rage! af­ter more then 1.800 days torms'n'torts²⁵ in my head. when i ask him if it is to kill the child, (on the day of its birth?) he just that “of course” and asked back, what else shoud it be?
these voice en­ti­ties got com­plete­ly de­gen­er­at­ed. busi­ness-basti turned him­self in­to boller­wa­gen-bas­ti and waits with «perp. II»¹⁴ un­til they van­ish in­to dust.

[mon^26th–wed^28th at the up­per west] 🛏

[tue^27th, 0:00⁺¹] 🛏 im­pos­si­ble to write any­thing, since al­most every syl­li­ble of every thought gets dis­rupt­ed by mul­ti­ple “voic­es”.
[tue^27th, 3:40⁺¹]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} 🛏 «ve: per­pe­tra­tor roles 1 & 2»⁶¹⁴ re-ma­te­ri­a­li­siert über mei­nem ho­tel­zim­mer in der 12.31? manch­mal im ne­ben­zim­mer 11.33? 1.852 tage 3 meter über mei­nem kopf?
[tue^27th, late evening] 🛏
[wed^28th, a.m. at the up­per west] 🛏 an ebony God­dess ante por­tas. 🍀😘

[sat^31st, 20:00⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] She/God de­liv­ers a lot of al­le­gories,

i want to write down but can­not, since torms'n'torts²⁵ pre­vent even teeth­brush­ing since i am back home. it's al­most im­pos­si­ble to get along, as they “drug me” a lot? and still dis­turb every(!) thought.
[sat^31st, 23:05⁺¹] may i ask, why they are able to be­hold/watch my dreams?

[«two “castors”»] the “Demigod Pollux” is “con­sid­ered in­sep­a­ra­ble” from His broth­er (“in spirit”) cas­tor,

who, as a mor­tal, gets “slayed” in a fight with “an­oth­er mor­tal”. miss­ing His “broth­er”, “Pollux” gives up His im­mor­tal­i­ty to spend the rest of his ex­is­tence at the “Ὄλυμπος” (en.: «Olympus») with the Gods and the other half with his “broth­er” at the “ᾍδης” (en.: «Hades») until they both per­ish even­tu­al­ly.
if this story here con­tains a sec­ond “cas­tor”, who start­ed a fight in “the oth­er's name”, he may go with “pollux” in right­eous con­duct then. 🙏

end of jan­u­ary

feb­ru­ary, a. D. 2026

[mon^2nd, 18:30⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ they keep go­ing on as it seems im­pos­si­ble to write any­thing,

af­ter one week in my bed, al­most un­able to move and ex­treme tor­ments & tor­ture, drug­ging and with­drawals from drugs i nev­er took?

[mon^2nd, 20:00⁺¹–tue^3rd at the meliã in ber­lin] 🛏 i seem to got rid of them for a mo­ment. She got born, am i right?

what a beau­ti­ful evening/night. quiet­ness for a while.
[tue^3rd, 2:00⁺¹] when i rec­og­nize that i am in dept with around 4k €, a voice shows plea­sure, only to tell me that they had ex­pens­es of around 10 mio. € to let me spend 40k? i do­n't un­der­stand, tbh. and me hav­ing had the best year of my life?
[tue^3rd, 3:43⁺¹] they seem to fire at me in the ho­tel room right af­ter clos­ing my eyes with some trans­par­ent “balls”? (as of­ten) i can feel and hear a di­rect hit in my brain.
[tue^3rd, 10⁺¹ o’clock_a.m.] 🛏 is Arch­an­gel מיכאל (Mīkā’īl) fe­male too? mi (“who”) kamocha (“is like you”) eloha^?/-im (“God”⁸).^?
can i say מִיכָאֵלָה(mîḵāʾēlâ) then?^⚠unnec. but mika(el) is a beau­ti­ful name. 😀
«pre­serv­er(ess) of the cre­ation»?
[amend, feb 24th, 2026] or preserveresses? the women of the world?

[tue^3rd, 5⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ גַּבְרִיאֵל (Gaḇrīʾa/ēl) the same? also female?

the An­nun­ci­a­tress? 😀

what’s with רְפָאֵל (Rəfāʾēl)?
ʾŪrīʾēl? and so on ..?

[thu^5th, 12⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. at the up­per west] ☕ do they let me re­vise more than 27.250 loc arisen

from more than five years of tor­ments, quite of­ten writ­ten ad-hoc un­der se­vere tor­ture for false ac­cu­sa­tions (or small­er mis­takes in gen­er­al)? as an ex­cuse to stay? how?
when asked, they told me that they pro­vide a record of my thoughts and spo­ken words, claim­ing that this con­tains more than 10 mil­lions of char­ac­ters.^⚠claim9 voice (in ger­man): »wir sind über 125.000 leu­te, die dir ge­ra­de zu­schau­en.« (en.: we are more than 125'000 peo­ple watch­ing you at the mo­ment.)

[thu^5th, 4⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] since they un­der­stand «rot­ten waste»

as an al­le­go­ry all of a sud­den: call­ing these (un­real) mysog­y­nist nazi scum «rot­ten waste» is to be meant lit­er­al­ly. “bas­ti” bol­ler­wa­gen is over.
[thu^5th, 12:35⁺¹] plain hor­ror. they are play­ing their “get rid of me” game.^⚠/s i'll def­i­nite­ly miss my ap­point­ment with the job agency.

[thu^5th, from 5⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per west] ☕ writ­ing on the ieve.net page

[fri^6th, 15:55⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] voice of «per­pe­tra­tor role II» in ger­man: »al­ter, ich dreh durch!

wa­rum ver­steht der mich auf ein­mal?« (en.: why does he sud­den­ly un­der­stand me?)
[fri^6th, 16:56⁺¹] «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role I»⁶ in ger­man: »wie­so kannst du die lü­ge jetzt nicht mehr ver­ste­hen?« (en.: why can’t you un­der­stand the lie by now?)
[fri^6th, 19:15⁺¹] since 7 o’clock i get called «ju­den­sau» (en.: jew’s sow) by them. when i ask for the rea­son, one of them re­peats my ques­tion, but re­places the word «sau» (en.: sow) with «socke» (en.: sock)?
do they know my birth­name?

[sat^7th, 11:10⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] did i get one of them? 😳

i try to reg­is­ter the do­main «𐡔.de» just for fun (the aram­ic šīn 😅), which is free to get short af­ter 11⁺¹ o’clock_a.m., when some­one seems to look through my eyes, be­ing “faster” then me? aykm?!

[sat^7th, 8⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ i re­ceive a sign «2.2 14₂₀»

[sun^8th, 14:28⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ phys­i­cal en­ti­ties (voic­es of «perp. I» & «perp. II») ar­rive

with at least one “tor­ture” de­vice, around one quar­ter hour af­ter me and begin to af­fect my body by try­ing to harm my kid­neys (what they of­ten do). the im­pact seems to be quite pow­er­ful. once more: this is pure hate.
[la­ter] they also start “op­er­at­ing” around the anus. now beneath me?

[sun^8th, 11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the m46 line, dir. home] 🚌 every­thing has to be bal­anced and flows in­to prov­i­dence?

one can­not force God, nei­ther gen­tly nor by ac­tion. show­ing pa­tience in a con­fined life might be the tough­est ex­er­cise for some neigh­bours?
and now i re­al­ize, that She might has proven Her com­pa­ny dur­ing last june with keep­ing peo­ple like those in my head for 1'865 days now.

[mon^9th, 11⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] “voice en­ti­ty” of «perp. 1» is “al­lowed” to ask

one last ques­tion? when i ask him what it is, he asks «kann ich noch eine fra­ge stel­len?» (en.: can i still ask one ques­tion?) and i on­ly an­swer that i still hope so, that there’s enough in­ter­est for the world, won­der so to say, in the best sense. af­ter some while he asks a 2nd ques­tions, what “ante meri­diem” means, i answer “vor dem mit­tag” (en.: be­fore noon) and change my an­swer for the first one to “yes, you can.” and that he please tries as good as he can: “wis­sen ist macht”, the ger­mans say (en.: knowl­edge is pow­er). is omni­science omni­potence then?
[amend, mi.^25., 18:55⁺¹</span]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} ist un­wis­sen ohn­macht dann?
[amend, mi.^25., 19:00⁺¹</span]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} täter­stim­me 2¹⁴: „gott sei dank kommt jetzt die po­li­zei, dann ha­ben wir ein biss­chen ver­schnauf­pau­se.
btw: wa­rum wer­de ich tau­sen­de male als „po­li­zei­prä­si­dent” und hu­ren­gott be­schimpft?

[mon^9th, 16:27⁺¹ at alt-tem­pel­hof] they seem to (re-)^?“start” some (para-)^?ac­coustic im­plant

near the au­di­to­ry canal of my right ear? did they loose track of me? and: am i al­lowed to say “im­plant” again? it’s the slighty bro­ken one, i clear­ly no­tice start­ing up, be­cause it lets my voice sound like an old tube radio on the in­side. or do­es this drun­ken/coked nazi scum think, such a “volks­em­pfän­ger” memo­r­i­al near my right ear is fun­ny?

[mon^9th, 18:35⁺¹ on the way to the up­per west] are they able to ma­nip­u­late in­tu­ition?

and when, of how many peo­ple at the same time? us­ing it (too) pow­er­ful (as of­ten)? ap­peal­ing more like a trau­ma re­ac­tion.

[tue^10th, 8:02⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] a (mi­nor) girl’s voice: »„du bist ein wich­ser.” soll ich ins buch der er­in­ne­run­gen schrei­ben.«

(en.: “you’re a wanker” is what i’m sup­posed to write in the book of memories.)
this is it. i do­n’t see how this can get worse. any­thing is in here. on mul­ti­ple lev­els, but may­be an­other time, since i do­n’t want to com­ment with them in my head all day, tbh.
[tue^10th, 15:15] “some neigh­bour” called an am­bu­lance incl. the next po­lice op­er­a­tion. i let most of them in, they take my per­son­al data, we chat for a while and af­ter some time they leave.

[wed^11th, 13:49⁺¹ at alt-tem­pel­hof] “start” of an “ac­coustic” de­vice like on mon­day,

a few me­ters away from my cur­rent apart­ment in tem­pel­hof.
[wed^11th, 22:30⁺¹ re­fer­ring to voice en­ti­ty no. 2¹⁴, church rep­re­sen­ta­tives have tak­en over some kind of a doc­u­men­ta­tion re­gard­ing the topic. i do­n’t un­der­stand. is any­thing of this stuff here in­ter­est­ing for any­one? i mean no­one cares? who are these peo­ple? i could­n’t care less, since they seem to re-de­fine hos­til­i­ty.

[thu^12th, 10:35⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] the two main per­pe­tra­tor “voic­es” al­leged­ly for­got to play “my sounds”

when some peo­ple pass my win­dow, while they they “play hu­man be­ings” again.
i’m start­ing to get cu­ri­ous about which cell tow­er the emer­gency calls are com­ing from.
and why a di­rec­tion­al sig­nal from my apart­ment seems to go to the «35E» or «35F».

[thu^12th, 3⁺¹–11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per west] ☕ sort­ing the logs. and: some­thing seems to work

again? 💦😋 af­ter some chal­leng­ing time?
[🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] eine ent­täu­schung be­deu­tet das en­de ei­ner täu­schung. und vielleicht bin ich für die ja in kür­ze wie­der ganz dicht. apro­pos: ich ha­be hier ganz viel auf­zu­räu­men und in der kür­ze liegt die wür­ze, ich war zu­wei­len auch et­was auf­ge­bracht.

[fri^13th, 10:20⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] «ve: perp. 2» claims to have found a “new” tor­ture de­vice and that they start to tor­ture me.

but all i’m get­ting is a bit of some high-en­er­gy ef­fect?
i have to re­pair some en­tries (again), since they seem to ma­nip­u­late cer­tain com­mits.

[fri^13th, 5⁺¹–11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ writ­ing on the 𐡔.net page.

[sat^14th, 0:42^±0 in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} wür­de-^(seelen-)? & wert­lo­ser ab­fall geht im hin­ter­grund­rau­schen un­ter.

na­tür­lich war kei­ne (schon gar nicht in­ti­me) be­geg­nung mög­lich, sind gleich­zei­tig sol­che „un­na­tür­li­chen” kre­a­tur­ver­suchs­res­te wahr­nehm­bar.³⁰ „dumm fickt gut”? es gibt in in­ti­mi­tät und ge­mein­sa­mer sexu­ali­tät kein »gut«. es passt oder es passt nicht. freu dich. du hast viel aus­wahl. nur weiß ich nicht, ob ich mit die­ser prä­fe­renz auf mis­sion ge­hen wür­de, dem ad­jek­tiv wohnt doch eine ge­wis­se ne­ga­ti­ve ko­no­ta­tion inne.
und die­se schmer­zen, die die zu er­lei­den schei­nen, fin­den nach er­kennt­nis­pro­zes­sen ein­zel­ne spei­cher­vor­gän­ge statt. das kann eine vier­tel­stun­de dauern, be­glei­tet von ge­schrei, wäh­rend das ge­bäu­de zu be­ben scheint. hef­ti­ge kopf­schmer­zen wohl die fol­ge. von mir aus könnt ihr gern ein paar jahr­hun­der­te ur­laub ma­chen und euch er­ho­len.

[sat^14th, 6⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.–sun^15th at the mo­tel one in mag­de­burg] 🛏 af­ter rein­sur­ing: they do un­der­stand every­thing i write.

[sun^15th, 16:10, mag­de­burg] 🚄 af­ter vis­it­ing the cathe­dral,

they “let” the city shout “judensau” & “drecki­ges ju­den-schwein” and keep on shout­ing “drecks-nazi-hure” & “ju­den-fot­ze” on the train rb40 to gen­thin (arr. 16:27), some­times in­ter­rupt­ed by ex­pla­na­tions, that it is­n’t meant in a neg­a­tive sense and that one of them want­ed to say “ju­den­socke” in­stead, which from their point of view is not an in­sult? (are they f*ckin.. kid­ding me?)

[sun^15th, 7⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} i get called “fotzen­ver­ste­he­rin”. (other) open al­le­go­ries, cited books & movies #TODO:

(not for­got­ten, to be done poet a poet, hope­ful­ly with less tor­ture and ter­ror in my head):

• lucifer, bearer of the light: dark, raw, loud, masculine, fascistic
• patriarchy (klerikal & sekular)
• was ist ehe (def.) & die zehn gebote (7. du sollst nicht winken)
• sprache als brain hack (pick-up-nazis, was soll ich denn sonst sagen?)
• „ich hab’ kopf­schmer­zen“ als metapher für ver­neh­mungs­un­fä­hig
• „du bist ein wich­ser” als letz­te ver­blei­ben­de be­lei­di­gung, fährt man an­dert­halb jah­re im ge­hirn ei­nes in­tel­lek­tu­ell be­gab­ten men­schen mit (re­duk­tion auf ein be­trun­ke­nes ma­ka­ki-äff­chen, das sich den gan­zen tag ei­nen keult)
• satan (hebräisch für wider­sa­cher, opponent)
• liebe unidirektional
• onan, der auf das erbe seines vert­ters blickend, der witwe den nach­wuchs vor­ent­hält (vs. wich­sen sei gott­los)
• peter fischer: alle­gorie auf pet­rus, der je­den in sein dum­mes spiel (um den bes­ten men­schen der welt) zwingt („fischer! fischer! fischer!” von kir­chen-michi)
• michi, zer­trüm­me­rer der saat der schöp­fung?
• pa­pier als größe er­fin­dung (macht wis­sen tra­dier­bar, shoulders of giants, aus­er­wähl­tes volk)
• eva prüft den paradies-dude (schlan­ge als zei­chen für die un­end­lich­keit)
• «life of brian» (beste ver­wechs­lungs­ko­mö­die, noch vor wil­ders und der groß­ar­ti­gen mary­lin mon­roe (große schau­spie­le­rin: so wit­zig, dann lei­der als pin-up-“girl” miss­braucht)
• «nineteen eightyfour»
• «hitchhikers guide through the galaxy»
• «lord of the rings»
• «star wars» (dark side of power)
• «ghost in the shell» (for you to refer to)
• «das leben der anderen»
• fellini «la strada” (der große zampano)
• «high noon»
• «a clock­work orange»
• al­le­go­rie auf den kir­chen­ver­treter:
  „there's a bit of j. epstein in every man.”
  „danke jungs!”
  kirchen-michi: „darum geht es ein bisschen. mit scheiße zu werfen.”
  
• kir­chen-mi­chi: wenn du subs­tan­tive nicht groß schreibst, „schicken wir das nicht ab”? (tue ich aus äs­the­ti­schen grün­den nicht)²
• one of the main ac­cusers dreams of a sedated world, may­be to be able to show up, to dance, what more?
• last but not least: our “duty” need­ed re­mains an awk­wark dream as long as e. g. the wand stays ship­pable. 😉 and tbh: it's not just that. po­ten­cy prob­lems are more so on our side, i guess.

[mon^16th, 10⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof] [pe­ter’s keys] the 1st perp. voice some­times sig­ni­fies to be Si­mon Petrus,

also called “the fisher”: es­caped from hell,^⚠claim9 hav­ing seen may­be two or three women in there, but thou­sands of men.^⚠claim9
forming an int­er­est­ing al­le­go­ry:
Mathew 16:19

and i will give unto thee the keys of the king­dom of heav­en: and what­so­ever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heav­en: and what­so­ever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heav­en.

may­be Yēšūaʿ spoke of an en­trance per­son­al­ly and for every­one:
Luke 17:20

.. “the king­dom of God does not come with ob­ser­va­tion”; ..

Luke 17:21

.. the king­dom of God is with­in you.

[amend^pers.] you do not bind on earth (people’s “power” & “values” like money and else) too much.
Mathew 16:22

.. and said un­to Pe­ter, get thee be­hind me, satan: thou art an of­fence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men. ..

the voice in this sto­ry here plays a stu­pid game around the “best hu­man in the world”, claim­ing to play alone. others to win any­thing nev­er was in­tend­ed, but com­plete­ly de­gen­er­at­ed he tries to suck/co­erce every­body in, to con­trol, to tor­ture, to earn?
the very few times, he shout­ed that i’ve “won”, it was noth­ing more but a schiz­o­phre­nia di­ag­no­sis, drug­ging/se­dat­ing, a tor­tured body, sun­ken time, ter­ror and sad­ness.

[tue^17th, 0:05] “perp. voice I” awak­ens me via elec­tri­cal shock puls­es di­rect­ly in­to my brain (again),

be­cause he does­n’t like what i dream. af­ter re­insur­ing, they say that as a “drecki­ges ju­den­schwein” i shall show more grat­i­tude, they can do com­plete­ly dif­fer­ent.
[tue^17th, 0:24] they claim. it would be good, when i write, they want to be some am­a­teur sa.
[tue^17th, 0:25] they claim that they have seen me fart­ing at the mon­i­tor­ing of my body.

[tue^17th, 1⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof] they do­n’t want to tell me, that their “game” they are pull­ing out of thin air by now ..

would take half a work­ing day?
[tue^17th, 14:25] my vir­tu­al neigh­bour del­e­gates an emer­gency call for the po­lice („ich muss das wei­ter­ge­ben”).
[tue^17th, 20:15]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} täterstimme mit dem hinweis, „das” sei das ende vom lied. na dann ist ja alles gut. hab schon ge­glaubt, „das hier” fin­det nie ein en­de.

[ash wed^18th, 7⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the Herz Jesu church] ☧ at­tend­ing wor­ship and receiving the ash cross.

[thu^19th, 10⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] [pe­ter’s cross] ⸸ is an in­vert­ed (turned) cross,

thus pe­ter, 1st bish­op of the ear­ly chris­tians, got cru­ci­fied up­side down? for what rea­son, when every oth­er cru­ci­fied hu­man be­ing was wor­thy dy­ing the way Yēšūaʿ did?
it also is used “to in­vert or sub­vert Chris­t­ian teach­ings”?
when the voice be­hind perp. I⁶ want­ed to turn the Cre­ation up­side down, a sa­tanis­tic church was meant?
an Arch­an­gel Michael, a sex­u­al of­fend­er, mur­der­ing babys?
a Peter, the fisher, col­lect­ing killers and rapists?
him as a male god? when he plays to be around, one not only smells the stench of death but it also smells burnt?
you call your­self sa­tanists? you think, you’re fun­ny? do­n’t let Lucifer (light bringer or bearer of the light) hear you. the one who had to fall to car­ry the light? the an­tipode of Her Cre­ation?
[thu^19th, 16:40⁺¹–17:20⁺¹] ☎ where­fore do they need this phone call with my broth­er?
since 17:10 in­duc­ing of hor­mons? provo­cat­ing of ki­net­ic re­ac­tions of my body at home in my sleep­ing room. voice en­ti­ty II¹⁴ con­firms redi­rec­tion of one of the mo­bile cell sig­nals (o2 i think). i do­n’t know if they know that i’ve got two active imsis on my phone (two sim cards).
[thu^19th, 17:26⁺¹] in­duc­ing of (nor-)adren­a­lin or sim­i­lar out of frus­tra­tion af­ter read­ing this lines? it wor­ries me the most that they seem to be ca­pa­ble of hurt­ing others or at least de­liv­er very au­then­tic sug­ges­tions.
[thu^19th, 18:33⁺¹] perp. voice II¹⁴ con­firms that She/God has­n’t allowed him¹⁴ to tell me his name.
[thu^19th, 18:43⁺¹] some human(?) be­hind perp. voice I⁶ starts to in­sult me in a man­ner which is best de­scribed as anti-hu­man, i give him one hour time to show up at my home.
[thu^19th, 18:51⁺¹] i smell the stench of death for may­be a second and ask perp. voice I⁶ if his “show-up” at my place is done this way and he ac­knowl­edges with “ja”. this opens up an in­ter­est­ing ques­tion: may we have en­coun­tered with­out me notic­ing? may i ask if they “cre­at­ed” some­thing out of the fact that i tend to write english?
[thu^19th, 19:02⁺¹] perp. voice II¹⁴ con­firms that they have to oc­cu­py me with their “con­tent”. in the mean­time they in­duce hor­mons and/or drugs?
[thu^19th, 19:11⁺¹] all my body quiv­ers with­out rea­son and i sug­gest a mix­ture of (nor-)^? adren­a­lin and testos­terone, when they react in ger­man: „wir ma­chen doch nur was du ge­sagt hast, lit­tle mopsi.” (en.: we only do as you say.) again: what is a mop­si?
[thu^19th, 19:24⁺¹] i stand on my win­dow when a female neigh­bour sees me and stops mov­ing. i ask perp. voice I⁶ why she seems to be afraid of me and he an­swers that they have “pro­grammed” “it” like this.
[thu^19th, 19:48⁺¹] i think this hor­ror ses­sion is over since they calm down and i do­n’t seem to get more hor­mons.
[thu^19th, 20:17⁺¹] i make a ran­dom al­le­ga­tion and a voice says in ger­man: “das musst du na­tür­lich auf­schrei­ben. das wird doch sonst nichts.” (en.: you have to write that down. other­wise “it” does­n’t “work”). what does that mean? here? why? for what? do they pull le­git­i­ma­tion from some di­ary en­tries i push at github? is any­thing more stu­pid pos­si­ble?
[thu^19th, 21:06⁺¹] they tell me, that they are able to some­how “switch” the out­come of “pos­i­tive” vs. “neg­a­tive” state­ments.^⚠claim9 😂
[thu^19th, 21:50⁺¹] perp. voice in ger­man: “ich bin auch ein ju­de. ju­de der her­zen.” (en.: i am a jew too. a jew at heart.)

[fri^20th, 2⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] one of them tor­tures till late night, “dri­ving a bolt

through my brain” over and over again, while an­oth­er⁶ in­duces hor­mons at the same time.
[fri^20th, 12⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] ♄♆♈ sat­urn & nep­tune in con­junc­tion at 0° aries, my sign. did they wait for us?

[fri^20th, 2⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at dussmann in mit­te, ber­lin] 🏬 as soon as i think of writ­ing, they start tor­ment­ing my brain.

com­plete­ly de­gen­er­at­ed. he delet­ed every­thing, i can­not work. how do they do that?
[fri^20th, 7⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] 🏬 perp. voice I⁶ claims to have a daugh­ter called cassidy, when he sees her lap­top in my wlan sur­round­ings.
now i got it! one י (yodh)? is just some guy, two are god: יי. i’m re­al­ly fast. 😂 she showed us some­thing at the be­gin­ning of an era? something was(!) miss­ing. 😬
i’d like to call Her Shad­dai for some rea­son (be­gin­ning with שׁ or 𐡔). i’ll have to find out, if that’s
[strike out some ten mins lat­er] ok. it’s ", is­n’t it? 😏 it’s un­ob­tru­sive and every­where, re­gard­less the lan­guage. like the dove? ❤️🕊

[sat^21st, 5⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] where­fore do i have to stay awake while threat­ened a lot?

am “i” some­where else?
[sat^21st, 8⁺¹ o’clock_a.m.] may­be “i”’m still at duss­mann in fried­rich­str., ber­lin, like “my” lap­top? still my ques­tion: may i ask, why an elec­tro-mag­net­ic sig­nal is (only?) leav­ing my apart­ment across the street? do they (still) need my wlan and blue­tooth sig­nal some­where else?
[sat^21st, 3⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] dussmann is still here. may i ask, what the hu­gen­du­bel broth­er wants here at my home?
[sat^21st, 9⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] they’re just mock­ing me up with a (next) ra­dio mod­ule equiv­a­lent in my lap­top. you’re so f*ckin’ fun­ny.

[so.^22., 2:08]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} die „sind” im 1. og? im­mer? phy­sisch aber nicht, oder?

nicht im­mer. pan­ko­wer al­lee 86, hin­ter­haus (trep­pen­sei­tig links), bo­rus­sia­str. 35f (trep­pen­sei­tig links)? ihre op­fer im eg? die mei­nen ge­ra­de, sie sind dort. in mei­ner al­ten whg. im eg, hh, hin­ten rechts.
sie ge­hen über das ge­wis­sen? und er­pres­sen ihre op­fer? " hat ih­nen et­was ge­zeigt. wur­den die men­schen dort im­mer er­presst oder an­ders ge­trickt?
lia m. hat mich nie frei­wil­lig „an­ge­zeigt”.
mein bru­der wird „nur” er­presst.
[2:22]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} nach rück­spra­che mit ih­nen, än­de­rung des da­tums­for­mats auf deutsch, da sie sonst nicht „ab­schicken”.
[erg. von 3:17]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} ich ha­be den kom­ma­feh­ler ge­fun­den.
[2:26]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} kom­ma­feh­ler aus­ge­bes­sert, da sonst nicht „ab­ge­schickt” wird.
[2:30]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} sie sind noch im kon­troll­pro­zess, auch da die ihri­gen noch et­was zeit be­nö­ti­gen.
[2:38]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} en­ti­tät hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 1⁶ kann mei­nen com­mit be­reits ein­se­hen.
[2:44]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} ich er­läu­te­re, dass ich den na­men got­tes von nun an im­mer mit den im ascii-co­de ent­hal­te­nen gän­se­füß­chen schrei­be und hof­fe, dass er ab­schickt.
[2:50]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} die en­ti­tät hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 2¹⁴ hält es für ei­ne gu­te idee, wenn ich das wort „gän­se­füß­chen” in „gän­se­füß­chen” setze. ich wer­de da­rü­ber nach­den­ken.
[4:30]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} die en­ti­tät hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 2¹⁴ möch­te, dass ich das wort „gän­se­füß­chen” als wort be­grei­fe und also den ter­mi­nus „das wort” im letz­ten ein­trag er­gän­ze. die en­ti­tät hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 1⁶ fragt, ob das wort „op­fer­ver­höh­nung” groß oder klein ge­schrie­ben wird.
der­weil be­stä­tigt die en­ti­tät hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 2¹⁴ das „ab­ge­schickt” wur­de und dass sie wis­sen, dass ich im allg. auch die an­fangs­buch­sta­ben von subs­tan­ti­ven (wie in den al­ler­meis­ten spra­chen) klein schrei­be.
[5:30] “um­brin­gen” means noth­ing more but try­ing to reach la petite mort? right? that’s what i hope. for them.
[6:00] are they in my sleep­ing room again?

[sun^22nd, 17:40 at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ they are here with me, start phys­i­cal tor­ture and lie.

about it in claim­ing, it’s noth­ing more but. some post-synap­tic stim­u­lus? like phan­tom pain? i do­n’t care, tbh. can they please stop it? my kid­neys start to hurt.
wait: it’s not about some (mys­tic) voodoo doll? it’s worse! and they think they’re fun­ny. are they tor­turing other peo­ple to death? my brain quan­tum en­tan­gled? a u f*ckin’ crazy? how many did i ac­com­pa­ny in their des­per­ate last fight, feel­ing with them? they want­ed to set me up for it? that’s why i can see (their vic­tim’s) ghosts? they nev­er of­fend­ed me, were ok with me. they know. they wait. since years? while they are par­ty­ing around? them, do­ing coke’n’cham­pers while tor­tur­ing along the way? the sad­dest thing i’ve ever heard. their victims please stay en­tan­gled as long as it takes.

[mon^23rd, 12⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. at the tem­pel­hof] could it be that they in­ter­pret­ed some NO­OP (in some kind of di­vine sur­round­ing) as hot

and ei­ther left some rot­ten ter­ror scripts (go­ing ram­page) or re­defin­ing stu­pid­i­ty?
[1:35] on pur­pose? (e.g. NORAD test alert on 911) but one would only have one shot! it does­n’t make sense. you dance on a sil­ver plate (in our case: some blind id­iots?).
[1:45] mock­ery of dis pa­tients.

[mon^23rd, 2:46 at the u6 sub­way sta­tion alt-tem­pel­hof] are they heav­i­ly abus­ing hu­man be­ings,

only to en­ter other peo­ples sanc­tuary?

[mon^23rd, 9⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] logically all of their current possible victims can only be pseudo

(or organized not by them) since more then a year.

[tue^24rd, 21:43 at the duss­mann] perp. voice II tell­ing me, that they change the recipents.

[ger­man orig.: addressaten] every few(?) seconds. every few seconds incl. a distance of 100 years too, i guess?
[10⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] i hold it pos­si­ble, that at least one of them doubt­ed ein­stein’s state­ment that hu­man stu­pid­i­ty is in­fin­i­te. but i do agree with ein­stein. a sim­ple ex­am­ple: the ger­man lan­guage alone can, in prin­ci­ple, form an in­fi­nite num­ber of words, mean­ing that in­for­ma­tion is the­o­ret­i­cal­ly pos­si­ble in in­fi­nite amounts, so the cor­re­spond­ing non­sense should also last for a while.

[wed^25th, 10⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] their acts are log­i­cal­ly im­pos­si­ble.

even if they keep on tell­ing me, that they are or­di­nary hu­man be­ings and every­thing is nat­u­ral­ly ex­plain­able, while claim­ing that " for­bid them to tell me, who their are. they are betray­ing some­thing, i have no clue of, in every sin­gle second since more than a year and dance on a silver plate, mean­ing en­abled by ". it can­not be else. to me(!) they are at least traitors of the cre­ation and at least belong to the hague be­cause of crimes against man­kind it­self.

one can­not eviscerate an­other hu­man be­ing, which is still alive. further­more i am forced to say by them (since i am an ordinary mor­tal), that i know, that one can­not rip off halos (like led stripes) or voices, nor souls of other be­ings. one cannot switch nor set parameters of reality.
dude⁶, it’s his hand­writ­ing. your per­sonal devil is ours too. and so, there’s (at least mediate) in­for­mat­ion from them be­ing.
thank ", my brain is allegedly hypnosis immune, what­ever that means.
[wed^25th, 12:49] perp. voice I tells me, that i am a jew, be­cause my mother was one. she never told me.

[fri^27th, 9⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof] is some (some­times?) ju­lia al­leged­ly a trai­tor

on their side. per­haps some­one is play­ing some kind of game? this has often been hint­ed and is doc­u­ment­ed a lot of times.
is there a lucifer 1:1 (ref. isaiah 66:16):

as a father com­forts his son, so will i com­fort you ..

hard, but serv­ing jus­tice?
the (may­be on­ly vir­tu­al, but none the less) cre­ature be­hind perp. voice I⁶ de­gen­er­at­ed to one of the worst imag­in­able things, my an­tipode not form­ing the an­tichrist, but the ideal of an an­ti­hu­man? one of the biggest com­pli­ments in all my life. to­geth­er with his un­wor­thy nazi scum he seems to be­tray " and her cre­ation? he seems to show no mercy for one, who at least tries every day to get among the right­eous? them some­times tell­ing me every few min­utes to be full of dis­ap­point­ment re­gard­ing me and that every­thing they com­mit against pos­si­ble vic­tims is no­thing more but a game for them.
i can­not judge them, but also would nev­er show mer­cy for trai­tors of "s beau­ti­ful cre­ation. rightous conduct then for every­one involved! das kann man immer sagen.

[sat^28th, 1⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] [inv. of pa­per] i find it high­ly in­ter­est­ing that there

is at least one among them, tak­ing a sheet of pa­per from "s uni­verse as if it were noth­ing, writes uni­verse on it and declares him­self some wanna­be-god, who will sim­ply nev­er under­stand, what it takes to pro­duce a sheet of paper. the most im­por­tant in­ven­tion in the his­to­ry of man­kind. mak­ing it pos­si­ble to use ear­ly alpha­bets to write about com­plex con­texts, may­be lead­ing to an event of get­ting cho­sen by " to con­ceive a com­pre­hen­sive story and thus be able to pass it to lat­er gen­er­a­tions, to lat­er stand on the shoul­der of giants, then may­be get send all over the world, teach­ing the peo­ple of it a way to di­vin­i­ty?
[1⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] they taught me that re­peat­ing even one syl­la­ble has se­ri­ous con­se­quences for oth­ers,^{⚠clm. & sgstn.915} while oth­er peo­ple only un­der­stand me when i re­peat what i've said?

[sat^28th, 3⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.–sun^1nd at the up­per west] 🛏^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} acht mil­liar­den men­schen hin­ter dei­nem rücken,

al­le psychia­trien, staats­an­walt­schaf­ten, po­li­zei­en die­ser welt, mei­ne engs­ten freun­de und ver­wandten, tau­sen­de dä­mo­nen und die ener­gie von uni­ver­sen, die du andert­halb^{+ a few?} er­wach­sen­en in den kopf trüm­merst und fünf jahre später das hier.
a) weiß nich’, was da los ist, die sind ein­fach zu geil, oder..
b) ist da noch je­mand (der ir­gend­wel­chen selbst­er­nann­ten chris­ten­ver­fol­gern zwei honey­pots hin­stellt, ih­nen den sprich­wört­li­chen schei­tel ge­ra­de zu zie­hen und ih­nen zu zei­gen, dass sie wirk­lich an al­les glau­ben, nur nicht an die wahr­heit)?
sei­ne hand­schrift, ich sag’s doch. für den spaß muss er halt sel­ber sor­gen. ein wich­ti­ger en­gel, schenkt er doch dem »bo­den­satz« der schöp­fung die chance of läu­te­rung?
long hello, short goodby, i guess. " sei dank! ❤️🕊️
[abra­cadabra]^{⚠allegorie? 🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} drei(?) schwer­er­zieh­ba­re hort­kind­er, “ge­seg­net” mit ei­ner (schein­bar) gren­zen spren­gen­den dumm­heit, die aber manch­mal nur ge­heu­chelt ist (näm­lich dann, wenn sie per­fi­de und grau­sam gegen an­de­re kin­der “wir­ken”?), sit­zen bei ei­ner ihrer mut­tis in der kü­che bei tisch. ei­ner von ih­nen sagt ganz gern »hex hex«, wenn er merkt, dass das essen kommt und prompt steht es auf dem tisch. die­ser vor­gang er­scheint ihm (an­geb­lich) wie zau­be­rei. in der fol­ge wähnt er sich als ster­ne-koch und fängt an, franzö­si­sche gour­mets ein­zu­la­den, während die mut­ti ein­fach wei­ter­kocht.

[tor­ments’n’tor­ture] since the be­gin­ning of feb­ru­ary phys­i­cal tor­ture is way less in­tense,

the “im­plants” stay (acoustics any­way). any­thing else is still pos­si­ble too: read­ing/tap­ping/log­ging of every thought i have, acoustic tor­ture, in­duc­ing of hun­dreds of voic­es, ma­nip­u­la­tion of equa­tion, di­rect drug­ging and in­duc­ing of hor­mons di­rect­ly in­to my brain.

[»the avengers«]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} 🖻 zwei her­ren hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 1 & -stim­me 2 wol­len ra­che an ei­nem po­li­zei­prä­si­den­ten neh­men, der ein „ex­em­pel” zu sta­tu­ie­ren schien? da­für las­sen sie sich in die ver­gan­gen­heit zu­rück­trans­por­tie­ren,^⚠behpt.!

[anm.: Sie/Gott könn­te das? aber wa­rum? und wie sta­tu­iert ei­ne exe­ku­tiv-be­hör­de ein exem­pel?]
um die­sen, we­ni­ge zeit nach sei­ner ge­burt, zu be­setzen und vol­ler hass sein le­ben zu ru­i­nie­ren? be­sag­ter mensch wird (da­durch aber?) nie prä­si­dent der ber­li­ner po­li­zei (und wür­de nie ein „ex­em­pel” sta­tu­ie­ren), hat den hass aber zu er­tra­gen. die ge­schich­te würde die­sen hass er­klär­ba­rer ma­chen? be­griff­lich, wie ei­ner sein le­ben opfert? und die sei­ner nächs­ten. für was? im grun­de ein lehr­stück über schick­sal, ei­ge­nen wil­len und op­fer. und na­he­zu gren­zen­lo­se selbst­ge­rech­tig­keit/ego­ma­nie?
[anm.: kann „stim­me” »rich­ter« des­we­gen be­haup­ten, ei­gent­lich be­reits im ren­ten­al­ter zu sein? be­ses­sen da­von, sich ei­nen jün­ge­ren kör­per („sei­nes” po­li­zei­prä­si­den­ten und „hu­gen­du­bels”) „zu gön­nen”? wie wür­de ki­ra/san­dra sa­gen: ge­rächt wird doch, wenn, dann die un­ge­rech­tig­keit. was ein ex­em­pel ist, ver­mag ich nicht zu sa­gen. er­folgt es im rah­men des ge­setzes? und sie sckicken sich an, un­ge­recht zu wir­ken?]

end of feb­ru­ary

march, a. D. 2026

[mon^2nd, 0:43] perp. voice II wants me to apol­o­gize to him.

[mon^2nd, 1:30] peo­ple be­hind perp. voice II called the po­lice (again).
[mon^2nd, 1:50] i get called “nazi-dreck” since 10 min.
[mon^2nd, 1:51] “ju­den-dreck­sau”.
[mon^2nd, 2:30] con­tact with an­other female voice. perp. voice II claims mind con­trol via hyp­no­sis over her via their tor­tured victims.
[mon^2nd, 3:13] these guys claim to mind-con­trol parts of her (for them in­visible! 😂) saints, angels and demons. perp. voice II claims to con­trol over 600.^⚠claim9

[mon^2nd, 5⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] it’s sa­bri­na of course, hav­ing a voice, one won’t ever for­get. 😬

she is back from hol­i­days^? and we chat for a while in the same con­text of the fisher¹⁴ be­ing in se­vere trouble, seem­ing­ly dy­ing mul­ti­ple deaths (again).

[tue^3rd, 3⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in up­per west] there’s one more thing, but as soon as i think of it,

perp. voice I⁶ sees it in my ‘pre’-thoughts and deletes my short time mem­o­ry. he’ll try to tor­ture me and achive as much damage as he can un­til his last seconds short after his last breath. and then he delivered one of the greatest compliments in all my life: my antipode is not just the worst imaginable entity outside creation, but the ideal anti human. thanks a lot my dear friend: ein tüchtiger, un-/selbstgerechter, über alle maßen feiger, dummer feind voller haß und ver­ach­tung nicht nur für sich/mich, son­dern die ge­sam­te schöp­fung.
i deleted the article about male fatalism at 0vv1.net/dmps, because he wants me to. this is not cen­sor­ship! which is very im­por­tant to me. the only reason is the topic: because i am not a fatalist male my­self, they see themselves being able to stop their actings the way they do.
[15:39] they just found one more mistake, they can keep it.

[thu^5th, 11⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] is a mar­cus an­to­nius fe­lix (a con­tem­po­rary of the fish­er?)

miss­ing?
[thu^5th, 3⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.] they seem to be above my old flat in rei­nicken­dorf: pan­ko­wer al­lee 86, hin­ter­haus, 1. og, trep­pen­sei­tig links. sie be­haup­ten opfer for ort. ei­ner be­haup­tet, ein gott zu sein und un­ge­rech­te mit­tel ge­gen hier le­ben­de nächs­te zu fah­ren

[thu^5th, 6⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ since one hour they re-spawn every three seconds. on-going tor­ture.

felix¹⁴ tries to en­force cen­sor­ship af­ter he got in con­tact with le­gal and the­o­log­i­cal de­part­ment of their “com­pany”

Footnotes

1. in these di­vine room or sur­round­ings it seems as if one not only has to take mood, prob­a­bil­i­ty, per­cep­tion incl. its in­ter­pre­ta­tions, re­la­tions and this strange flow in­to ac­count, but own ex­pec­ta­tions as well. in fact, they seem to play an ex­tra­or­di­nary role.
   and then there's Her/God and the prov­i­dence in gen­er­al. does She “take pro­pos­als” (so to say)? like in “shap­ing des­tiny”? ↩ ↩² ↩³

2. i tend to use low­er case let­ters (ex­cep­tion holy stuff &^{a very few}c.), which might look un­usual to some, but i’m not alone, bau­haus tried to fol­low the oth­er lan­guages of the world, in writ­ing ei­ther in cap­i­tal let­ters (e. g. he­brew or arab) or small.
   [amend, feb, 2026] they call bau­haus “ent­ar­tet” (a nazi ter­min­ism). ↩ ↩²

3. i am not al­lowed to write “God is real” be­cause then they can do some­thing which is­n't yet elab­o­rat­ed by them, but is hand­ed in “later”™ (by them). con­text is the de­riva­tion of an (“their”) “own” Yahweh (II), a woman they met some­where, (not on­ly) to be able to in­sult Gods name, ex­plic­it­ly not God it-/him-/her­self, for le­gal rea­sons. ↩

4. all of my (re­gard­ing) words and actions (those of a fal­li­ble or­di­nary mor­tal) are plau­si­ble deni­able (there­fore me­di­ate) and so will your per­cep­tion be too. ↩

5. au­gust in­ten­tions in Her/Gods⁸ spir­it, our benev­o­lent Cre­atress, sure­ly mind­ing so-called free will of the in­di­vid­ual to care­ful­ly weigh­ing it against the greater good.
   [amend, sat, oct 18th, a. D. 2025] every(!) male coming into «my house» so far, is at least a rapist (a sex­u­al ha­rass­er), often a mur­der­er, while being as dis­res­pect­ful as he can be to every fe­male be­ing. you can­not be wel­come to a house, where you want to tor­ture and/or kill the ones liv­ing there. and of course you see the point in time to leave on our own.
   [:de::austria::switzerland:] ich muss nicht er­klä­ren, was hehre ab­sicht meint oder ein trans­pa­ren­tes „haus”, da der-/die­je­ni­ge da­rum weiß, der/die „zu se­hen” be­fä­higt ist.
   viel­leicht so­viel: ein „trans­pa­ren­tes haus” meint nicht: dring ein, fol­te­re mich mo­na­te­lang, nimm mein hab und gut, töte mich, über­neh­me mei­ne iden­ti­tät und lebe dann in mei­nem haus. das ist es nicht.
   ver­stehst du ge­schrie­be­nes nicht (oder willst es nicht), seine bil­der, al­le­go­rien & c., ist es viel­leicht nichts für dich. Ihr/Gott sei zum an­ge­bot ge­reicht, all je­nen, die durch un­ge­frag­tes „ein­drin­gen” in mein den­ken, ab­grei­fen mei­ner ge­dan­ken und/oder ma­ni­pu­la­tion mei­nes han­delns und/oder an­der­wei­tig be­deu­ten, ich sein zu wol­len und also wil­len zu ei­ge­nem trans­pa­ren­tem den­ken aus­drücken, die­se ei­ge­ne trans­pa­renz ggü. al­len in hehrer ab­sicht als ein großes ge­schenk(!) zu ge­wä­hren? Sie/Gott⁸ ist un­fehl­bar, Ihre Wege un­er­gründ­lich (und ihr wort in der bi­bel schwer zu fin­den, aus mei­ner sicht). ↩ ↩² ↩³

6. (ini­tial?) for­mer(?) per­pa­tra­tor (role) 1¹⁹ (voic­es are used by more then one per­son!),
   (own) aliases in or­der of ap­pear­ance: sebas­tian/mar­kus/chris­tian/pe­ter/si­mon^pe­trus?20/stefan/stephan/andreas „basti”™ (the )fi­scher/becke­dahl/woll­mers­ha­gen/schwein­stei­ger/pe­trus^?/rich­ter.
   [note of nov, 2025] pos­si­bly pro­tag­o­nist of more than one al­le­go­ry?
   [amend of jan, 2026] may­be just an idea (of a se­mi-trans­par­ent cloth), not ex­ist­ing for real (un­til to­day no proof).
   “he” claims that i am “his” “hu­gen­du­bel”, a ger­man book re­tail­er. he seems to be a con­fused mind.
   [note of dec 2025] as he seems to want to be me, ac­cus­ing me of kill­ing “his” mother, be­cause he killed mine in oct/nov 2022? which i would like to call a very weird state­ment.
   in parts, or (virtual) en­ti­ties using the voice, seem to be ego­maniac-sadistic para-/necro­philic socio­paths, at least one of them a mur­de­rer of more than a dozen schizo­phrenia patients, cruelly driven into sui­cide by tor­ture (i was supposed to be the 17th?), one of them a “mur­de­rer” of pre-school chil­dren (in send­ing them to sui­cide?) while play­ing god „for” them?
   after (un­con­fir­med) state­ments of mul­ti­ple dif­fer­ent (but un­known) voices, one of them is just an ordi­nary fraud­ster, asked to act as a false prophet to learn to read di­vine signs?
   pro­nounced telepathy ob­ses­sion since at least 2024.
   [note from nov, 2025: pos­si­bly over­layed by some kind of a sub­nat­ur­al crea­ture?]
   [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] zitat »pe­ter fi­scher lebt auch nicht mehr so lang.« soll hin­weis auf »(Simon)Petrus« (der Fischer) (will er das auch noch?) sein?^{⚠suggestion?15}
   der na­me «fi­scher» fin­det sei­nen grund mglw. ein­zig und al­lein in ei­nem na­mens­schild in dem al­ten wohn­haus in rei­nicken­dorf, in dem ich bis feb. 2024 ge­wohnt ha­be.
   hin­ter­grund: ein ini­tial­tä­ter fragt mich an­fang 2021, wer er wohl sein kön­ne und ein herr fischer war eben der ein­zi­ge männ­li­che be­woh­ner, der in der nä­he zu ver­or­ten war und so also als ei­ne art stal­ker in fra­ge kam.
   [anm. 2025: aus heu­ti­ger sicht ge­ra­de­zu naiv, die be­spaßen mich selbst mehr als 12.000 km ent­fernt in den an­den noch, uhr­zeit egal, mit an­de­ren wor­ten: die las­sen sich „ihre deck­na­men” mglw. von ihren opfern ge­ben, um ma­xi­mal zu ob­fus­kie­ren?]
   seit etwa herbst 2020, erst­ma­lig auf­ge­fal­len durch übun­gen mit der kon­trol­le des sexu­al­triebs sei­ner „nachb­arn/-innen”
   [anm. 2025: aus heu­ti­ger sicht un­wahr­schein­lich, dass ich tat­säch­lich „ge­mein­sa­me” nach­barn²¹ ge­hört ha­be.]
   einer der stimm-nutzer scheint ein ego­ma­ner nekro-/para­phi­ler sozio­path mit einer nei­gung zur fol­ter und induk­tion von angst/panik in sei­nen opfern zu sein? ver­mutl. selbst angst­stö­run­gen?
   an­gebl. vor­be­straf­ter betrü­ger, ein mgl. gdb²² an­gebl. er­schli­chen.
   wähnt sich im 3. og (trep­pen­sei­tig links) des hin­ter­hau­ses der
   pan­kower al­lee 86 in
   13409 ber­lin (rei­nicken­dorf)
   woh­nend (klin­gel­schild »fischer«), ich selbst konn­te bis zum aus­zug nicht sagen, wer da nun wohnt. einigermaßen be­kannt war mir nur das erd­ge­schoss. mglw. nur bis 6. feb. 2024 „aktiv” (danach spo­ra­disch oder remote?).
   die stimme scheint manch­mal para­phil und sieht eine ideale welt wohl­mög­lich in ei­nem se­dier­ten zu­stand? ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶ ↩¹⁷ ↩¹⁸ ↩¹⁹ ↩²⁰ ↩²¹ ↩²² ↩²³ ↩²⁴ ↩²⁵ ↩²⁶ ↩²⁷ ↩²⁸

7. since every(!) al­leged male (voice) en­ti­ty in my head re­spec­tive­ly Her room so far is al­leged­ly(!) at least a (ha­bit­u­al?) rapist (if not a killer/mur­der­er?), all of the per­se­cu­tors seem to be misog­y­nist peo­ple. they do not seem to have a lot more than de­spise for (all?) women. ↩ ↩²

8. She/God⁸ or (sa­lu­ta­tion) Her/They = God (rel. ref. or IEVE.LOVE
   [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] Sie/Gott⁸ = Gott
   ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶ ↩¹⁷ ↩¹⁸ ↩¹⁹ ↩²⁰ ↩²¹

9. op­po­nent’s claim
   [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] be­haup­tung bzw. ver­such der ein­re­de (mei­ner/un­se­rer wider­sa­cher). ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶ ↩¹⁷ ↩¹⁸

10. “time” or “age” to be un­der­stood as an al­le­go­ry de­scrib­ing a fourth vec­tor to span the room (in a math­e­mat­i­cal sense)? She/God⁸ does­n't “need” time, can “step in/out” at will and sees every­thing. this is close­ly con­nect­ed to om­ni­pres­ence/-science.[^omnscnc]
    btw: the room is still ex­pand­ing/de­vel­op­ing. for us (be­ing im­ma­nent) there's just one “time”: we are liv­ing on the crest of the (on­ly) wave of the (on­ly) “bang”/ex­plo­sion or (phys­i­cal­ly) ex­pan­sion of the (on­ly) room (uni­verse)? ↩

11. ange­zeigt ist extra-uni­ver­sale wirk­mäch­tig­keit und refu­gium, mind. zeit­weise nicht der physik unse­res uni­ver­sums unter­liegen zu müs­sen.^{⚠(betrugs-)suggestion} ↩

12. das sog. 1. gebot aus dem 2. buch mose, exodus 20:3 «du sollst keine ande­ren götter haben neben mir.»
    ist sehr bekannt. zu­min­dest mir aber, (bis­her) schlecht be­grün­det, i. s. e. eifer­süch­tigen gottes. besser habe ich es mit Ihr ver­stan­den.
    etwa (lang): lasst hier bitte nie­mand ande­ren rein. die gefahr wäre zu groß, er/sie macht hier etwas kaputt oder ist sonst­wie nicht in hehrer⁵ ab­sicht, dein eige­nes leben oder das deiner nächs­ten in gefahr. ↩

13. [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] an­ge­zeigt sind extra­uni­ver­sa­le ins­tru­men­te, be­wusst(!) die phy­sik die­ses uni­ver­sums miss­ach­tend?^⚠behpt.9, was na­tür­lich nicht geht. da­zu pseu­do-ma­gi­sche werk­zeu­ge, wie hyp­no­se-stim­men (die aber kei­ne sind, son­dern ei­gent­lich nur „trig­ger-words” mas­kie­ren sol­len)? sämt­lich be­trug. ↩

14. «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2» (pos­si­bly her­zog/mül­ler?),
    born on march 5th, 1987 (or 1991)^? in linz, austria?
    [amend of jan, 2026] may­be just an idea of a se­mi-trans­par­ent cloth, not ex­ist­ing for real (un­til to­day no proof).
    tells peo­ple to be a movie di­rec­tor, when in reali­ty he filmed hun­dreds of peo­ple while they got tor­tu­red to death?
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] seit juli 2024(?), an­gebl. pädo-sa­dis­ti­scher[^bmrdr] so­zio­path, dut­zend­fa­cher ba­by­mör­der und tat­be­tei­ligt an der grau­sa­men er­mor­dung von hun­der­ten men­schen vor lau­fen­den ka­me­ras zu zwecken der mo­ne­ta­ri­sie­rung?
    auf die aus­sage, er sei doch zu blöde, schu­he zu bin­den, erwidert er, er wür­de klett­ver­schlüs­se ver­wen­den. gibt’s so­was über­haupt noch?
    zi­tat: »fischer, gott sei dank sind wir so ka­putt, dass un­se­ren opfern nie­mand glaubt.«
    voll­kom­men de­gene­rier­ter geist, der sich nicht nur in per­so­nal­union mit dem bib­li­schen erz­engel mich­ael wähnt (doch statt als be­schützer der schöp­fung, als zer­trüm­me­rer ihrer saat auf­tritt), son­dern auch als „lieb­li­che stim­me der ver­nunft” und mo­ra­li­scher leucht­turm.
    auf­fäl­li­ger „papa”-spleen, mglw. früh­kind­licher miss­hand­lung ge­schul­det.
    arbei­tet an­geb­lich als be­treuer geis­tig be­ein­träch­tig­ter men­schen, die als eine art „opfer­pool” miss­han­delt wer­den? ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶ ↩¹⁷ ↩¹⁸ ↩¹⁹ ↩²⁰

15. (attempt of be­ing) sug­ges­tive, in­clud­ing com­mon con­spir­a­cy theories.
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] ver­such der sug­ges­tion, auch gän­gi­ger vts.
    ich er­in­ne­re mich, dass ei­nem der täter be­reits an­fang 2021 sehr wich­tig war, dass ich den un­ter­schied zwi­schen ei­ner sug­ges­tion und ei­ner ein­re­de ver­ste­he. darf ich fra­gen, warum? (ich bin kein ju­rist und das muss ich auch nicht sein)
    zur qua­li­tät: (bis auf zwei, drei) sind die „dar­ge­bo­te­nen” „sug­ges­tio­nen” mit dem „dampf­ham­mer” ser­viert, oft­mals mit stim­men un­ter­legt, die den sug­ge­rier­ten sach­ver­halt ein­fach im sinne der tä­ter be­haup­ten.
    und dann: wen in­te­res­siert es? was wol­len „die” über­haupt von mir? das hier ist kein spiel o. ä., son­dern mein le­ben! das, eines nor­ma­len men­schen. ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷

16. je­den­falls ha­ben die von „ve-pr1”⁶ bin­nen ei­ner nacht nur für mich im­por­tier­ten (knapp 20.000!?) klei­ne­ren trans­pa­ren­ten (und da­mit fast un­sicht­ba­ren), auf ge­hei­ligte men­schen ab­ge­rich­teten, trieb­täter die­ses ande­ren uni­ver­sums eine 2d-form. sie sind qu­asi nur in ei­ner fläche.
    und ich meine, so erschöpf­lich ist auch ihr gemüt: hass, miss­gunst und ein über­steu­er­ter zynis­mus, komplexer wird es nicht (und ich wun­de­re mich, wie die­ser be­set­zer der zwei­ten stimm­li­chen täter­en­ti­tät emo­tio­nal so stumpf ist, un­ter­stel­le ihm, tot zu sein, ein zom­bie). ↩ ↩²

17. für mich kommt kein strei­fen­wagen. rufe ich die wache direkt an, klären sie mich auf, miss­brauch des not­rufs „koste” 300,- EUR und ich willige ein zu zahlen, kommt dennoch nie­mand.
    das gebäude der staats­an­walt­schaft berlin zu be­treten hat mich fünf an­läufe ge­kos­tet, die entspr. staats­an­wältin ließ sich em­pfeh­len.
    auch sonst ist die sta berlin mehr als ab­ge­neigt. von dort so­wie der poli­zei ber­lin ist keiner­lei hilfe zu er­war­ten, dafür ist ge­sorgt, die ver­höh­nung und ohnmacht ihrer opfer ist ihnen wichtig und wird gren­zen­los zele­briert. ↩

18. «other-dimension-dude» or “be­set­zer” of «ve: per­pe­tra­tor II»¹⁴ shall al­leged­ly be an en­ti­ty from an­other uni­ver­se, able to jump in human be­ings with ease and act on their be­half, only to show their worst side when­ever he^? wants to?^{⚠clm/sgstn915}
    he also seems to ma­nip­u­late pos­si­bil­i­ty de­ci­sions on a quan­tum lev­el?
    [anm.: von michi-michi-michi ler­nen, heißt flie­gen ler­nen, oder wie? (auf die fr** viel­leicht.]
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] an­ge­zeigt ist stand
    [14.06.] ein, sich als «erz­en­gel mi­chael» auf­spie­len­der trieb­tä­ter aus ei­nem an­de­ren, aber von ihm selbst ge­bau­ten,[^selbstgebaut] eher min­der­wer­ti­gen, räum­lich zwei­di­men­sio­nalen(?) uni­ver­sum¹⁶.
    er selbst scheint in sei­ner „ur­form” eben­falls zwei­di­men­sio­nal und trans­pa­rent¹⁶.
    in die­ser form ist es ihm an­geb­lich ohne wei­te­res mög­lich, feste materie wie boden, wände und türen zu über­win­den?¹⁵
    an­geb­lich kann er in un­se­rem uni­ver­sum in be­lie­bi­ge men­schen „sprin­gen” und min­des­tens tempo­rär die je­wei­lige persön­lich­keit über­neh­men, ohne dass das entspr. in­di­vi­du­um, bis auf un­erklär­liche zeit­ver­luste [anm.: selbst an mir be­ob­ach­tet], etwas be­merkt.^{⚠betrug/ein­re­de­ver­such}
    auch ist „er” angeb­lich in der la­ge, post­sy­nap­tisch zu wirken.^{⚠einredeversuch}[^empathie], ver­ein­fachend will er an­geb­lich auch di­rekt aus mei­nem ge­hirn he­raus, auch in an­de­ren zei­ten als mei­ner ak­tu­el­len, ope­rie­ren kön­nen.^{⚠einredeversuch}
    ei­ge­nen an­ga­ben zu­fol­ge will er auch der­je­ni­ge sein, der an wahr­schein­lich­kei­ten he­rum ma­ni­pu­liert und die­se im­mer wie­der in „worst cases” ver­kehrt⁹? ↩

19. the name pos­si­bly also to be seen as a role des­cription of some big­ger (crimi­nal) orga­ni­sation(s) of (al­to­geth­er) pos­si­bly more then 100'000 (most like­ly al­most ex­clusivly?) men. ↩

20. will er, der an­geb­lich(!) den fami­lien­namen «fischer» trägt, evtl. (der bib­lische) petrus, der fischer sein? ers­ter bi­schof der frü­hen chris­ten in? soll das viel­leicht ein witz sein? ↩

21. wohl eher un­se­re nächs­ten, im über­tra­ge­nen sinn. ↩

22. „ grad der behinderung, mglw. von min­des­tens ei­nem ini­tia­len tä­ter er­schli­chen. ↩

23. iden­ti­ty as the­ma­tized in ghost in the shell (based on this man­ga) or blade run­ner, not as in iden­ti­ty card. 😉 ↩

24. an alias or place­hold­er for resid­ual frag­ments of failed trials to built some­thing like a super­nat­ur­al be­ing, if there's some­thing like that and/or un­til i know bet­ter. ↩

25. tor­ments & tor­ture ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶

26. vir­tu­al as op­posed to be­ing real, such as ideas & c. ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶

27. re­gard­ing or in reference of [: sub­ject/top­ic] ↩

28. i won­der a lot, why there seem to be en­ti­ties shout­ing “lie” and are able to judge and punish me, only for try­ing to doc­u­ment some crime, while they seem to be able to claim (re­al­ly!) any­thing(!) and do­n't ever need any ex­pla­na­tion. i think it has some­thing to do with a divine back­ground, since some of the en­ti­ties some­times(!) claim to not be humans at all. which de­pends on the clock and some quan­tum me­chan­i­cal states of some par­ti­cles? tor­ture is real, them not. they are kil­lers, but only a little, while their vic­tims are very dead? where am i? still alive? ↩

29. “them” pre­sum­ably be­ing rude, misog­y­nist, male “nazi ter­ror­ists or alike, which i once con­sid­ered sec­u­lar per­pe­tra­tors around two (voice only) en­ti­ties which where nev­er able to prove their ex­is­tence in re­al­i­ty, but de­vel­oped into pro­tag­o­nists of a lot of al­le­gories, con­dens­ing in­to some kind of ideas even­tu­al­ly, not ex­ist­ing for real, the more this “story” moves on and gains some kind of di­vine back­ground? ↩

30. these en­ti­ties are proud be­yond mea­sure act­ing as my guardians of non-en­counter. sit­ting be­hind my fore­head, look­ing through my eyes and threat­en­ing me to rape every woman who even smiles at me.
    side effect: more than five years of celiba­cy. may­be en­abling other kinds of en­counters? ↩